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     Listening To: Keaton Henson - Sarah Minor  ||  youtube  ||  
     Mood: understanding
     Title: meaning behind the words
     
     oh.
     i understand now.
     
     
     . . . you meant never... not ever... again.
     
     forgive my ignorance.
     
     
     ... i'll send one last enevelope.
     
     
     
     and then i'll stop.
     
     
     fairwell my friend.
     
     
     i never meant to make you uncomfortable.
     .
     .
     .
     i just wanted my friend back.
     
     . . . my dearest friend . . .
     you once said "I love you.. more than anyone else in this world... and i won't leave you till the day you die, having happily been my wife, my love, my lover, the mother of my children and so much more..." - 2006/06/06 05:34
     
     
     i didn't become your wife.. your lover.. nor the mother of your children.
     
     
     . . . I just wanted your friendship.
     
     

     
                                                                                                                                            september 22nd 2025 - 00:42:14

     







     
     Listening To: Keaton Henson - Elevator Song (feat. Ren Ford)  ||  youtube  ||  
     Mood: Distant
     Title: With fingertips to my lips.. my mind drifts away.
     
     Empty.
     Empty is the day.
     Empty is the way my soul feels.
     trapped in a life that I don't want to be apart of anymore.
     
     . . . oh little bird . . .
     how do i stop existing?
     
     aren't my tears enough?
     please tell me the price I must pay.
     please shed this burden from me.
     
     the weight is too much to bare.
     
     
     . . . oh little sparrow . . .
     
     I didn't mean to hurt you.
     .
     .
     .
     .
     .
     . . . I just wanted to love . . .
     
     
     
     
     

     
                                                                                                                                            september 19th 2025 - 00:50:08

     







     
     Listening To: Sunn O))) & Boris - The Sinking Belle Blue Sheep  ||  youtube  ||  
     Mood: Sinking
     Title: In silence I, . . . stand alone
     
     It's times like this...
     When the world sleeps...
     When everything is still.
     too silent...
     That I start to fall.
     
     
     
     ... and when I look around...
     There is no one.
     But what do I expect when I don't want just anyone around me.
     
     
     
     Only my throughts to drown me
     My sorrow to swallow
     and a single candlelight flickers close.
     
     
     
     ... don't do this...
     ... don't mess THIS up...
     
     
     
      ... too late . . .
     
     
     
      . . . THEY are gone... All of them . . .
     
     
     
     oh you stupid girl. don't be so naive...
     not again.
     

     
                                                                                                                                            september 14th 2025 - 22:16:13